It never fails to taunt right before I close my eyes, forcing me to stay up just a little longer than I'd like to. It's amazing how old memories can eat at you from every direction. I get this overwhelming feeling in my chest and by the time my eyes start to shut it's time for me to get up and go to work. Too often has this been happening, week after week of no sleep and when the weekend finally comes I waste it being a bum under the covers. There are so many things making me anxious right now and I don't know how to let them out, I don't even know how to explain them to anyone. I feel as if someone would have to plug a cable in to their ear connecting to my brain for them to even interpret how I feel. It sort of feels like I'm nervous but giddy, but not quite. Idk..tonight I'm going to try and get an early start on this vicious cycle; Other news is I'm moving! It all happened so fast and I'm excited but really depressed about it at the same time. The new place is about 8 blocks (still in brooklyn) from me now and is pretty chill. Its just hard to get out of this negative view.
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