I enjoy music that moves me. There's nothing better in life in my opinion than being able to feel whilst you breathe to your favorite tunes. Especially since I have this problem with expressing my feelings altogether. Part of me just gives up on it because I feel as if no one will understand anyways. The rest of me just doesn't feel. Normal things that would make most sad or happy has no effect on me at all, and I dislike it. I envy people and their emotions. I want to be able to feel and express, to get over certain fervor with a good sob. Out of anything else in my life, I find that The Smiths have moved me in a way that's so natural. Morrissey's voice like butter when he utters those words and those thoughts, on certain nights they make me or break me. It fills me with pain and emotion and for those couple of minutes I feel alive. Just to have a couple tears fall from my face is a high all in itself. Being music-less is just another day. Day after day of meaningless trials, not even being present with the living.
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